**This app makes it near impossible to edit once it’s published (hence the frequent typos!) but I need to add that upon some “insider information” and a little research on my own, I am more than happy at this point to just throw my hands in the air and ONLY pray for God’s will to be done in this and not pray for any specific treatment over another. I would humbly ask the same of you to those of you who have been praying for us. This should be at the end but it won’t let me do that. So…sorry! :)**
When I first started this blog, I told myself that I would try to only blog when something important came up or when my feelings were forming coherant thoughts. I also realized that I want to document things as they come up so that after I’ve beat this I can look back and realize all we had to go through. So that is the purpose of this post.
First, I need to explain that our radiation oncologist, I’ll call him Dr. A, has a team that works with him and us. He has a resident (possibly a few, actually), he has a nurse practioner assigned to me, a dietician, and a social worker assigned to us to help keep us up to date on things and help us with big decisions. So the social worker called me today to let me know that my insurance has denied Dr. A’s request for the proton beam therapy. Ughhhhh. She told me that this information had just came across her desk and that Dr. A had already called the insurance company to schedule a face to face meeting with someone on the insurance company’s board to try to get them to overturn their decision. She said that that does happen occasionally and that it’s possible it will work. She said if they still refuse to cover it, that they will somehow appeal the decision and try that way to get it overturned. Very confused about all this at this point and which treatmemt really is better. I will let Dr. A fight the insurance battle but if he loses he loses. We will not seek legal action, although that was suggested.
So this is just the latest speedbump. Part of me is screaming, “Call up that insurance company and give ’em heck! Who do they think they are playing God with your life??” then there’s the more reasonable side of me (it’s small but it’s there!) quietly whispering God’s promise in Psalm 32 “I will guide you along the best pathway in your life. I will advise you and watch over you.” So glad God revealed that verse to me before today or I would probably be in handcuffs at this point otherwise. I gotta believe it. I gotta claim it. Otherwise this news would be such a crushing blow to my already dwindling “I got this” attitude. One day at a time!