….Maybe. Actually, I’m pretty much convinced that I can’t, but what the hay, let’s give it a go. Did you ever know something was really bad for you, but kept doing it anyway? I think we all have, and I am sooo guilty right now. The truth is, I just can’t seem to get my eating on track. I truly believe that if I could eat mostly raw fruits and vegetables, meat of known origin, limited dairy (but full-fat, low fat cheese is just wrong!), and not so much processed and sugary junk, I would be much better off in the way of my health. This is something I’ve been thinking about for a while now but just haven’t had the courage to accept. Sometimes, God speaks to me through gentle reminders, over and over and over. Trust me, I am an expert a forgetting things, so when things keep popping in my head seemingly randomly (this one’s been for months) usually when I explore it further I find that God was behind it. So, that’s why I’m finally able to put my eating under the spotlight and try to make some better changes.
My breaking point came last night as I was about to scoop myself a bowl of this ridiculousness:
And then I checked out the ingredients:
Yup. Pretty sure this is why I have cancer. And I’m not being stupid either. (But of course I went ahead and ate a bowl anyway…ok, two bowls! Ugh) My “diet” is chock full of things that God had no hand in creating and I believe it’s killing me. So today, I am going on record to say that I will begin making small changes that will hopefully by the end leave me with a diet full of organic fruits and veggies and with none (or only very small amounts) of these types of things. I know for a fact that cancer cells uptake sugar quickly and that sugar makes it metastasize faster. In my shoes, don’t you think that would be enough to leave it all behind? Well, sure, that all sounds fine and dandy til my husband comes home from Sharp Shopper with a family-sized box of Oreos.
Of all the fruits of the spirit, self control is by far the lowest on the scale for me. Well, maybe not the lowest, but it’s waaay down there with patience. But just like “real” fruit, you gotta nurture it and allow it to grow before there can be enough to harvest. Or something. I don’t know if that makes sense, but you probably get where I’m going with that. Some friends of ours gave us this book a few months ago to read:
And I purposely haven’t read it yet because I didn’t want to change the way I eat. But not today. Today I’m confronting how I eat head on and I’m gonna make some changes! We’ve already made some good changes, like buying local meat with no steroids or hormones in it and pasture fed and all that good stuff. I try to get the healthier eggs (cage free, good diet and all that), I’m trying not to make veggies and stuff in the bag in the microwave, and I’m trying to buy organic wherever possible. Its expensive to eat like this though! So we are going to get into gardening this year and try to grow some stuff and save some money in that way.
I would LOVE any help or pointers you may have in switching to a healthier lifestyle (and bringing my family reluctantly with me). If you know of any books or blogs that would be helpful, I’d love to hear about them! We are going to try to get to a place where we are eating mostly unprocessed foods with minimal sugar and food coloring and things like that. I’d like to not eat genetically modified food and want to up the organics if I can. So I’m willing to learn! It just seems odd that our diet as a nation keeps straying further and further from anything that looks in any part natural and where the list of ingredients is like 50+ things! No wonder we suffer from obesity and that cancer rates keep rising. So we are gonna (try to) do it! Haha but just because I know I shouldn’t do something doesn’t always keep me from it. But here goes nothin! (For the sake of transparency, I’ll confess that I put brown sugar in my coffee already today. Sigh)
So that’s kind of more on the mental side of my journey right now, physically I’m feeling decent. My brain is a foggy mess, I feel tired all the time, when I wake up I’m sore all over for a few hours (feels like when I had Lyme disease and all my joints hurt really bad), my right ear has insane pressure in it all the time, and I have a rash on my face:
My face is also getting swollen again due to something called lymphedema. Lymph fluid has protein in it so it’s actually hard to the touch and since I have no lymph nodes or pathways on the right side of my face an neck, the fluid is building up and my neck is very hard and difficult to move. I actually am going for my first therapy for this today! I look forward to some relief in that sense. I’m also hoping it’s the buildup of this fluid that is affecting my ear and my hearing and that that can be resolved soon, too. And tomorrow I get my third infusion! It’s probably weird to be excited for it, but I am. At the risk of sounding like a junkie, I want this drug and I want as much of it as I can get!
Looks like spring is coming soon! (: