The results are in and here is where I really am at a loss for words. Since I still have not processed this news fully, I’ll just give it to you how I got it. My oncologist called this afternoon and told me that my body is showing a complete metabolic response to the chemo drug. As in, nothing lit up on the PET scan, not even the tumors that I had before.
He was kinda speechless. I was speechless. It was not a lengthy call lol. I told him that I didn’t at all expect to hear that and he told me that he did not honestly expect it either. Melanoma, at stage 4, is typically a death sentence. We are grateful for every day that we get because you just don’t know when things will go downhill. My mind still can’t quite figure this miracle out. Why? Why, God? I’m not questioning Him because I’m not happy (trust me, I’m thrilled!!) but I just don’t understand.
So, being who I am, I asked my oncologist then how long should we expect this to last. He said that essentially they don’t know, but that people who are lucky enough for this to happen, typically remain in this state for whatever reason for months, and sometimes even years. YEARS! I have not heard that word since being bumped to stage 4. I’m in shock and disbelief. This cancer is still most likely going to be what takes me, but it’s not taking me yet.
I just can’t stop crying. I’m seeing a chance. A chance to see my babies grow up. A chance that they’ll remember me. A chance to speak longer and louder about Jesus and the MIRACLES that He performs. A chance that some people don’t get. I have such mixed emotions but until I can sort out all that mess, I am just so grateful.
A chance to be with these goofballs for a little bit longer!! ❤