Today I go and get an ultrasound of my bladder to see if there’s anything in there that we can pin my current problems to. Not sure what I’m hoping for honestly, it’s always nice to hear there’s nothing, right? But at the same time, it’d be nice if we could settle on some sort of explanation; the hardest times for me are when things are up in the air.
I’m sure I won’t have any results any time soon, just like it took this long to get my skin biopsy results (basal cell carcinoma, by the way, nothing to worry about for me at this point), but I’ll certainly let you know when I hear.
I guess since it’s New Year’s Eve, I should mention something about the year behind or the year ahead or something like that, but since I’m exhausted from hosting a (ridiculously fun) sleepover for the HS girls from church last night, I’m not feeling particularly profound.
So I’ll just say this: 2014 wasn’t exactly my best year as far as the physical things, in fact in that regard the whole year was downright awful, horrible, painful, and just all-around bad. I started at stage 3 and mid-way through got pushed to stage 4, I can’t imagine that would top anyone’s “best year ever” qualifications.
But these challenges have brought out something in me that I didn’t know was there. My faith was tested, and it has stood firm. Not only that, but I can see how God has opened my heart to things and people and situations that I would have been completely unaware of before. I have seen God provide a way when there wasn’t one, I have been on the receiving end of healing that is inexplicable by medical standards, and I have made it through and been molded into something more pleasing and usable to God. And since that’s my only goal, I’d say it’s been a successful year. Good? Not so much. Successful? Absolutely. I’m still here, so there’s that!
(I know I haven’t been posting too much, and though I’m not quite narcissistic enough to think anyone was too upset about that, I figure I should at least explain. I’m spoiled now by writing on my iPad, but my WordPress app isn’t working on it right now for whatever reason, so while I’ve written out lots of things -inspired by Romans and 1 & 2 Corinthians mostly- I can’t quite publish them at the moment.)
Wishing you all a Happy and Healthy New Year!