These were the exact words of my oncologist when he called me yesterday. “I have some good news and an apology.”
So, let’s get right to it – the good news! No new mets in my lungs. Well that’s fabulous, I love it. Now what’s up with the apology?
Well apparently a radiologist at Penn decided to re-read all of my scans. Like, compare all of them. That’s no small undertaking, my friend. I’m estimating I have probably had over 50 scans of one sort or another at this point. And so this random radiologist who was apparently bored at Penn and just wasting time the day before Thanksgiving trying to make the day go faster or whatever read all my scans and came to the conclusion that it’s possible that the spots in my liver aren’t cancer.
Yup, you read that right. So he tells my oncologist, who is presumably also just bummin around the day before a holiday, and now he reads all of my scans too and comes to the same conclusion. (I’m only teasing about them being bored and wasting time, if you’ve ever been to Penn, you know that everyone there is very important and very busy.)
So what the heck is in my liver? They think they might be benign tumors called hemangiomas.
Just so we can all feel smart, here’s a pic of a melanoma met in the liver:
And here’s a pic of some random person’s hemangioma in the liver:
See, it’s easy to tell the difference! Just kidding obviously, there’s no way he can be totally sure at this point, but he did seem to think it was a very likely possibility based on the sizes and the way they’ve changed over time. I’m pretty confused about the details of it, honestly, and I’m not sure I could clarify what he explained to me even if I wanted to.
So the plan is that I will continue treatments for two months and at that point will get more scans that will apparently somehow tell us definitively if it’s cancer or not. I imagine it would have to look something like this
But what do I know, I’m not a radiologist.
It’s crazy to think it might not be cancer! I’m feeling really hopeful but guarded at the same time. This past week has been just awful (as you could probably tell by my crybaby writings of late. It’s like a big steaming pile of depression, like I’m trying to out-Solomon Solomon in Ecclesiastes or something) hence why Dr. A felt the need to apologize. I appreciate my oncologist and his team and I’m not upset at all at the possibility of a “false alarm”. But what an emotional roller coaster! This week got me like:
Thanks for coming along for the ride. You all are amazing and though I haven’t been able to reply to the comments on my last post yet, I fully intend to. Please know I read and take to heart each one of them and I’m so grateful that you’ve taken the time out of your day to leave me some encouragement. You guys are the best!
So now, let’s all go enjoy Thanksgiving and take a hint from this kid who really gets it.
Happy Thanksgiving!! ❤